Tuesday, April 1, 2008

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It's been a year since you broke my heart
Yet, that moment remains very fresh to me
Every single drop of tear from my eyes,
every pain,
every dream,
every wish
All these things inside my subconscious-
Making me feel like an idiot.

I'm not a psychic to read what's on your mind,
It might be too late to let you know
That I still in love with you.

How could this love story be wrong when it feels so right?
Loving you is like a breath of fresh air
No need to deny it;
Thinking of you is, indeed, the sweetest downfall of my day.

You might be wondering why,
You might still ask me how,
Truth is, it's not you that I need the most
It's not you that I want,
But why I can't picture myself with anyone but you?

Words are not enough to tell you how much I love you
Actions are even not enough to show how sincere I am to love you
Believe me or not,
You are a part of me I can't let go.

How can I let you go if it even hurts more?
Letting go is the hardest thing of all
Walking away and pretending that I don't love you is just a lie
Making me live in a world with no air.

I hate myself for loving you so much
Daydreaming that one day, you're still mine???
I guess they are right.
I should put an end in this crazy love affair

Reality is, I don't need another girl in my life
My life remains empty no matter how I try
But let me tell me you that,
I still be here as your friend
Only time knows what the real ending is.

"The greatest disease in the world isn't medical, it's being unwanted, unloved and uncared for. Physical disease can be cured but the only cure for despair is Love... Many people are dying for a piece of love."
-Grey's Anatomy

Monday, March 17, 2008

WHY WINEHOUSE WON?


A lot of people in the four corners of the world are asking why Rehab by Amy Winehouse, a 24-year old R&B/Jazz/doo wop singer/songwriter, has won the 3 major awards in the recent 50th Grammy Awards Ceremony including Song of the Year. Matter of fact is some people would only perceive the song as a unsubstantial song of a desperate alcoholic girl who's struggling to have a life in the low.

Yeah, the song lacks of some strings of good values for a prestigious award ceremony like The Grammys. In fact, the chorus is not that inspiring. The message connotes a negative impression especially to the disturbed youngsters out there.


They tried to make me go to rehab

I said no, no, no.
Yes I been black, but when I come back
You wont know, know, know.

The main question is, What makes this song meaningful in a way that it grabbed the 50thGrammy's Song of the Year? The answers might not be simple. Personally, I like the song not only because of its cool tempo but also of its unique lyrics and arrangement. Believe me or not, when you listen to the entire song all over again, you can find a certain spark of hope that seems so priceless in our daily hectic life.

I said, I got no idea
I'm gonna, I'm gonna loose my baby
So I always keep a bottle near

These lines seem crazy, indicating a dialog of a confused girl whose life remains incomprehensible all way long. Question is; why she doesn't want a help when she needed one? Answer: Simply because she can't understand the exact reason why she needs to go in the rehab and suffers the perilous stringent routine there. People get depressed and chances are, they become alcoholics, right? But not all depressed individuals and alcoholics need to go in the rehab.

Why? Here's the catch.

I don’t ever wanna drink again
I just, ooo, I just need a friend
Im not gonna spend 10 weeks
Have everyone think I'm on the mend

Got the point? People who are confused and depressed just need a friend who listens to them. When someone listens to them, they seem to realize that there's a good life out there and all they need to do is trust themselves. Imagine if people like this don't trust themselves much and they are hooked with alcohol, their life even sucks more than what we expected.

The next time you hear Winehouse's Rehab, try singing with it. She seems right. Sometimes, learning to say no to rehab is the best thing to do.

Monday, March 10, 2008

Just A Thought....


It is not to easy to tell a girl that you fall in love with her. You just don't know where to start and how you're going to end it. Truth is, the moment you face the girl of your dreams, chills crawl down your spine. You're like standing in the middle of where waiting for a rescue you yourself didn't know when to come.

What it feels like to be busted? It is elusively painful molded with complicated thorns of human existence. In short, the feeling is not only crazy, it really smash a man's ego. Whew!

Love is pain and pain is always a part of life. They say no pain, no gain. No matter how, loving a girl unconditionally but can't still love you back defines you as a faithful gentleman seeking for emancipation just to move on and let go, eventually.

Sunday, March 9, 2008

QUOTES ON LOVE

1) "Age does not protect you from love. But love, to some extent, protects you from age."
- Jeanne Moreau

2) "Love is not in the desire to lay with someone, but in the need to sleep next to someone."
- Milan Kundera

Sunday, March 2, 2008

More & More Quotes to Ponder....

1) "Whatever comes in our way, whatever battles we have raging in us. We always have a choice. It's our choices that show what we truly are and we can always choose to do what is right."
-Peter Parker, Spiderman 3

2) "Sometimes, to do what is right, we have to be steady and give up the thing we want the most; even our dreams."
-Peter Parker, Spiderman 2

3) "Sometimes, no matter how much you love someone, they just can't love you back in the same way... Living with a woman who can't love you back? Way lonelier than being alone."
-Grey's Anatomy, Season 2

4) "Never give up. in whatever you do, in whatever you aim for, in the things you've prayed for;
Believe & never stop believin' For good things come when we almost feel like giving up."

5) "The greatest gift you can give someone is your time. When you give your time, you're giving them a portion of your life that can never get back."

6) "To be happy, don't do whatever you like but like whatever you do. Happiness comes not from having much to live on but having much to live for."

7) God said: "If you never felt pain, how would you know I'm a Healer? If you never felt sadness, how would you know I'm a Comforter?"

"Child, if life is perfect, would you still know me?"

8) "Don't dwell much on the past, it brings TEARS. Don't think more about the future, it brings FEARS. Live with Christ, it brings CHEERS."

9) "Courage is going from failure to failure without losing enthusiasm."
- Sir Winston Churchill

10) "Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, loving someone deeply gives you courage."
_ Lao Tzu

Tuesday, October 9, 2007

QUOTES TO PONDER ON!!!

1) "Understanding is the first key to acceptance and only with acceptance can there be recovery."
-Harry Potter and The Goblet of Fire

2) "The way you think determines the way you feel and the way you feel influences the way you act."
-The Purpose Driven Life

3) Falling in Love is a Miracle worth taking all the risks. Once you have it, fight for it no matter what others may say.

4) Everything happens for reason.

5) Don't judge the book by its cover because if you judge the book by its cover, you'll be also judged by your own judgment.

6) "It's dirty but necessary."
-Taken from the movie entitled Training Day

7) "The only power greater than the power of the mind is the courage of the heart."
-A Beautiful Mind

8) "With great power comes great responsibility."
-Spiderman

9) "In the end, you can't hold on to anyone except yourself."
-Inspired by the movie "American Beauty"

10) "Don't go chasing waterfalls!"
- Sung by TLC

11) There can be miracles when you believe.

12) "It's our choices that show what we really are far more than our abilities."
-Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets

13) No one is perfect.

14) Apart from intelligence, there are 2 more important things in this world- that is, Friendship and Bravery.
-Inspired by the book Harry Potter and The Sorcerer's Stone

15) You can always be a loser but you always have the choice to be a Survivor.

(End of Part 1)

Wednesday, October 3, 2007

My Greatest Ordeal



My mom wrote this article on January 20, 1990. Two years before she died.

Dean Ryan became restless dawn of November 25, 1989. He kept tossing in his bed and he seemed to be having trouble in brething because of his colds. Since we ran out of Neozep Syrup, we gave him instead of Decolgen Tablet. At about 6:30 AM, we bought Rondec DM, a decongestant syrup and gave him immediately two spoonfuls. I really didn’t mind his crying, as I thought it was just one of those boys-pranks.

As I was preparing for the office (it was Saturday), Rolly noticed that his son was stiffining his whole body- pale and cold- this later on I came to know as seizure. We decided to bring him to the Plant for check-up with the Plant Physician. I have to drive the car since DR was too heavy and Rolly could not make him sit because of stiffness. Dr. Cagape did not report so we proceed to Davao Doctos Hospital (DDH). At the OPD, DR was already relax. The attending Pedia didn’t even notice anything wrong about my son. For observation purposes, however, she suggested to confine DR. We got Dr. Iriarte an old timer Pedia to check my son and because of the seizure, he referred the case to a Neurologist. Dr. Pacoles came that evening - DR was already having a fever and after a thourough check up, he called for his dad and me at the lobby since DR’s room was full of relatives and visitors. His suspect was brain problem and suggested for a lumbar top and other tests. The lumbar top was performed on that same night and results can be available after three hours. All the tests had negative results, but DR was still having seizures every 15-20 minutes and it was too painful seeing him grooming and crying with pain. At about 6 AM of Nov. 26, Dr. Pacioles who was leaving for General Santos passed by our room and informed us the negative results of the lumbar top. At first, he thought of bacterial problem or Meningitis, but because of the negative result he vwas still positive of his diagnosis. To confirm, a brain scanning was necessary of which it was not available in Davao but only in Cebu or Manila.

I just couldn’t put into writing how I feel that time. After weighing the pros and cons, we decided to airlifted DR to Makati Madical Center(MMC). Due to some documentation problem, we were able to fly on Tuesday, Novenmer 28. The dextrose was taken out but the NGT was still in his nose when we flew. Upon arrival at Manila airport, we waited for the private ambulance hired by Head Office. But it arrived late. Upon verification with HO nurse, we were still charged P400 pesos, half the contracted price for the airport to MMC route, when the actual amount we paid for the taxi was only P35. Imagine the difference!

At around 10:30 AM, we arrived MMC and we’re advised at the emergency department that there was no vacant room. Made representation that CCBI was the one who made the reservation for us. Right there and then, all the various examinations were performed. It took the doctors one hour after the IV was inserted. At 3 PM, we were taken up to the seventh floor circular and got a P670 per day room. The accredited Pedia, Dr. Celdran called at around 5 PM and CT Scan was immediately scheduled and finished at around 7 PM. The attending Neurologist, Dr. Perez and Dr. Thelma Tupasi, Infectious Disease Specialist, along with their associates kept visiting our room. At around 7:30 PM, my sister from Calamba, Daphne, who was fetched by a friend Maribeth, arrived with our needed things such as plates, glasses, canned goods, etc. and most importantly, love and moral support.

Because of the seizure, the IV of my son kept bulging, so it needed to be inserted again and again. I just couldn’t count how many inserts DR had. He also had stress ulcer and had to be lavaged from time to time because of the blood coming out from his stomach thru his NGT. All the tests in Davao were done again plus EEG of the brain, CT scan and Magnetic Resonance Imaging (MRI). It was the latest machine of MMC and it was just installed three months ago. My son was brought twice at the ground floor for the MRI test but the test results couldn’t be understood because DR slept only for about twenty minutes and the tests took 1.5 hours without interruption.

The Neurologist could not understand the CT Scan’s results- they saw a lesion at the back portion of DR’s brain. A disease which is common to older persons who drinks a lot without eating. The diagnosis in Davao which was Viral Encephalitis?Dimyelinating disease could not be overruled at MMC. Two main medications were given, steroids and hormones. Dr. Celdran even prescribed a medicine ACTH which he considered as a miracle medicine and could only be bought in Hong Kong or USA. I canvassed from all the big hospitals and drugstores in Manila but they had no stock ACTH. It’s a miracle from Above that the company physician of HO, Dr. Lugay was leaving for Hong Kong to check the DDS blood at the Prince of Wales Hospital, hence, we had the chance, yet he brought oly four vials out of ten because of its non-availability.

On the third day at Makati Medical Center (MMC), we transferred to a room at the 8th floor with a lower rate. MMC is noted as a class "A" hospital and my! The rates were class A too- you couldn’t just imagine our bills in 15 days. The services however was very satisfactory and the food was comparable with hotels. We used to buy food from their cooperatively eatery at the first floor since the price there is much affordable than with their floating restaurant at the third floor. Friends and relatives visited us in the hospital and there were two groups that offered prayers and divine healing- comforting us with the words.

Not to mentioned was the bloodiest coup de etat on December 1-7, wherein you can hear the exchanging of fires, guns, bombs and fighter plans at Ayala avenue. Government troops were using the open space in front of the MMC. Their base and wounded soldiers were brought there for treatment. You couldn’t just imagine how busy the Emergency Department- Rolly had witnessed the event since he was one of those "uzi" (people who wants to get the latest news first) at the ground floor. Because of the coup, there were stoppage in transportation in the provinces, hence, Rolly was not able to visit his parents at Cabanatuan Nueva Ecija (A city in Luzon, part of Philippines). On my part, I didn’t visit my sister in Calamba, Laguna (Still in Luzon, Philippines). Since the situation was complicated, my sister’s family were the ones who visited us in the hospital.

It had been nine years since my last visit in Manila. So when we went to Makati PAL Office for ticket reservation, we passed by the shpping centers. It’s wonderful especially at night, with all those glittering lights and decors- one could forget for a while that someone is sick in the family.

It was December 8, when the IV of DR was taken out and began to have his osterized food every three hours thru NGT. We were referred to another doctor, Dr. Reyes, a physical thrapist but since we were going home to Davao- he referred us instead to Dr. Luchie Aportadera, a Rehabilitation doctor of Davao Doctors Hospital.

We took the first available flight to Davao on December 12. We directly proceeded to DDH and we stayed there for three days. Medications were done at home. I requested our Plant Nurse, Let-Let, to do the daily injection for one week. IM was done every other day by our neighbor, who happens to be a nurse.

With this big blow in my life, I came to know who my real friends are and luckily, there are a lot of them. Our GM advanced the plane fare while my officemates gave what their heart dictates. Although we have enough funds for our miscellaneous expenses and Rolly just received his christmas bonus , we’re still thankful for their help and prayers. Rollly became emotional when he received a call from his friend, Alex, informing us that there’s a transfer of funds spearheaded by the Joggers Club. I also received funds raised by the Bajada sales office personnel.

DR undergone physical therapy and sppech training. Doctors visit every two weeks. Funds were also raised for him headed by the Ateneo de Davao University- Nursery Class. It reached P1500 pesos. His teacher visited him on January 16, 1990.

Philippines, My Philippines!

Philippines, My Philippines

I learn to hate my own country. Philippines, My Philippines- screw the title! Call me anything you want for not being patriot; still the big negative truth ’bout this nation remains the same.

Politicking is everywhere. Poverty towering up each year. Corruption in left and right. It really sucks to think that these are only the three among the thousand frustrating issues of my country.

Everytime I turn the television on to watch the primetime news, all I can see is the never-ending petition to oust our president. Administration vs. Opposition. Recent debates to amend our constitution. Summing it all up, our system is as dirty and weak, as it seems to be. It’s simply a foul garbage filled with rotten worms and corpses.

Another huge controversial issue is corruption (For me, it’s not a controversy anymore; I consider it as a routine). I can proudly say that my country is one of the most corrupt nations in this world. Wow, this information only reveals that we are bunch of intellectual people naturally gifted with advance degrees in conning. Very unique title!

Are those people in positions don’t get tired of what they doing? I agree, corruption is the only easiest way to get rich but do they deeply realize that they are also killing this nation? I thought my country is a pearl in the east? Not shocking news anymore. Painful reality is, our national anthem nowadays is like a work of art with no trace of truth in it. Its main purpose right now is for us to sing it for the sake of formality. Ang mamatay nang dahil sayo (To die for our own country) Geez, I will not die for this country! This is the most ridiculous line in our anthem whether you agree or disagree. This country will die not because of its patriots and martyrs but this nation will eventually die of corruption. More and more children will die because of malnutrition. And millions will die of ignorance. Who knows? My country will be included in the Guiness Book of World Records as being the largest brothel in the world. This is another PATHETIC great achievement for all of us!

I got a solution for all the Filipinos. Let’s change our national anthem. Instead of saying Lupang Hinirang (Land of Honor), we sing Lupang Talunan (Land of Losers!). LOL! Thanks for the inspiration that Manny Pacqiuao brought to us. But sorry to say, it’s completely not enough. We also need to change the name of our country. We can freely brainstorm a new name as long as it’s synonymous to CORRUPTION and DESPAIR. Perhaps, if these two things will be realized, Filipinos especially those in the AUTHORITY will be prouder of themselves.

I know this sounds crazy. You can despise my article if you want to. But before you do it, let’s connect the dots. Decades and decades ago, Philippines WAS richer than Japan- who happens to be the most industrialized nation in Asia now. Decades and decades later, Philippines IS doomed. Poorer as a rat. Those in Class A will continue to enjoy the luxuries of their wealth and those in Class B, C, D, E until Z will remain on the web of their dreams.

"I’m proud to be Filipino," when will be my right time to say it? Not today, definitely not tomorrow truth is, I don’t know if that time will come.

I just wish I was an American. Black or White, doesn’t matter to me as long as I’m in the LAND OF THE BRAVE AND THE HOME OF THE FREE!

Ennaid

Irreplaceable you are that’s true.
You complete the missing part of me and I’ll call you my boo;
My life seems like a mess but I have seen the power of love in you,
That genuine beauty of faith and trust that cast no fear.

How would I let you go?
If I don’t love you,
Why I am dreaming of you at night?
If I don’t love you,
Why I am thinking of you day and night?
If I don’t love you,
Why I am praying for you?
If I don’t love you,
Why I’m crying on my bed?
And if I can’t have you,
Why is it painful to see you go?

Of all my triumphs and failures in life,
In you I found the courage to go forth.

There’s no way to doubt it anymore,
For the rest of my life, I’ll love you.

I might not be your Clark Kent.
I have no strength like the great Tarzan.
But a sudden realization came to me-
I’m such a nobody without you in my life.

Rhythm & Blues Rules!

Aside from its cool and soulful rhythm, what’s still special with RnB?

Rhythm and Blues or simply called as RnB is, indeed, the newest music craze of all people around the globe these days. Everywhere you go, no matter what race you came from, you are absolutely hooked-up with the blues.

As a matter of fact, RnB is considered as the oldest music genre originated in the southern part of United States. From its humbly beginnings, R and B continually extends his horizon to captivate young and olds with its intensifying beats and inspiring realistic lyrics. Enumerate all the issues you want to hear and RnB has it!

If you are gregarious and energized, you surely feel overjoyed if HIP-HOP is played on air. Let’s admit that when you hear it, you can hardly control the urge to shake and groove till you drop. One way or another, Hip-Hop is undoubtedly COOL! Once you get hooked with its vibe, you never forget it. For this reason, Hip-Hop is not a fad but a wad of gold.

COOL PICKS

1)Yeah- Usher featuring Ludacris; from the album "Confessions"

2)Family Affair- Mary J. Blige; from the album "No More Drama"

3)Waterfalls- TLC; from the album "Crazy, Sexy, Cool"

4)My Humps- Black Eyed Peas; from the album "Monkey Business"

5)Sexyback- Justin Timberlake; from the album "Future Sex, Love Sounds"

If you’re still not contended with the powerful mind-blowing effects of Hip-Hop, try listening to RAP. Basically, rap is as similar as Hip-Hop but it apparently more driven, sharp and faster. Rappers are everywhere nowadays. From the basic essential styles of Jay-Z and LL Cool J to the hard-driven Kanye West and Eminem. Enjoy it while its still Hot!

COOL PICKS

1)Hot In Herre- Nelly; from the album "Nellyville"

2)Candyshop- Fifty Cent featuring Olivia; from the album "Massacre"

3)Drop It While It’s Still Hot- Snoop Dogg featuring Pharrel

4)Cleaning Out My Closet- Eminem

Yet, if you’re an introvert who remains to be gentle and emotional; SOUL definitely suits you. RnB/Soul seems to be the greatest unique genre of all-time due to its unforgettable soothing sound and heartwarming lyrics. Not only that, listening to it is like a road to eternity. So, get rejuvenated while tasting its sumptuous sounds!

COOL PICKS

1)If I Ain’t Got You- Alicia Keys; from the album "The Diary of Alicia Keys"

2)So Sick- Ne-yo; from the album "In My Own Words"

3)You Got it Bad- Usher; from the album "8701"

4)Lost in Space- Lighthouse family; from the album "Postcards from Heaven"

5)Again- Janet Jackson; from the album "Janet"

What can you ask for? Absolutely nothing. RnB is still the best no matter what other people say. Truth is- Rhythm and Blues will remain as the hippest and coolest thing the music world now and always!



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