Monday, September 29, 2008

"Forever yours, Here I Stand"

This is my number one personal favorite in Usher's fifth studio album, Here I Stand. The first time I listen to it, my heart went racing and my mind was telling me to push the back button of the CD player. Usher simply rock this song with his soulful vocals while its lyrics pops in your ear with a luscious glow. No doubt about it, this song is must-choice for your wedding day.

Usher has not yet released an official music video for this song but for now, here's the live performance of the song.

(Verse 1)
I’m hoping that this ain’t too hard to believe
Cause baby, you’re the only one for me
I know it gets hard when I’m moving in and outta state
But I promise my heart for you I would save

Just remember that…

No matter how far I go
And no matter how long it takes
No one or nothing can change
Forever yours here I stand (Here I stand baby…)

(Verse 2)
You’re like a mirror to my soul, but a queen (My queen…)
And finally now I know just what that means (Oh yeah…yeah)
You’re the blessing that I never thought I would get
And to the Lord I humbly bow my head

Just remember that...

Forever yours, here I stand

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Sunday, September 28, 2008

Eight Things You Need To Know About Me!

My co-worker, DAN B., gave me an interesting tag to answer. The tag has something to do with number eight. That means, you need to tell something about yourself in eight different things that you like.

Here I go...

1) My real name is Dean Ryan G. Martin, 24 as of September 29, 2008, and you can call me DEAN for short.

2) Describing myself in adjectives is too hard; all I know is I am an open-minded SURVIVOR who can outwit, outplay and outlast the odds and ends of life.

3) I have many hobbies and some of these hobbies are my addiction. Sad to say, I am addicted to net surfing and blogging (these hobbies eat the huge hours of my day and I'm trying to do something about it!) I am also into creative writing and listening to R&B especially to Grammmy winners such as Usher Raymond IV, Alicia Keys and Ne-yo. I like Tennis and if I can only walk, I can be the next Roger Federer or Novak Djokovic. And when that day comes, I hope My Tennis Babe-Ana Ivanovic is still there to have a candlelight dinner with me. LOL

4) Of course, I am really addicted to Mark Burnett's reality show, SURVIVOR. This program has produced some of the most brilliant people in the world. Here's the proof:

5) I also have this urge to read fiction novels written by prominent authors. Reading fiction novels makes my imagination go wild.

6) My favorite authors are John Grisham (The Testament), Dan Brown (Digital Fortress), Dean Koontz (The Key To Midnight), and J.K. Rowling (Harry Potter 1-7 Series). These writers have different styles in writing and most of them are excellent. Grisham delivers his story like a flowing tale of revelations, Brown is undeniably a controversial author and he's too superior in his writing style, Koontz is like using the five senses in his books; most of them are described in details and Rowling has a crazy imagination who can stun you in a blow.

7) Sometimes, I am a couch potato. I rather watch TV and DVD all by myself than having parties with hundreds of people. I already mentioned my addiction to SURVIVOR but I also watch The Apprentice, The 2005 Emmy Winner for Drama Series LOST, The 2006 Emmy Winner for Drama Series 24, The people's favorite GREY'S ANATOMY and the 6th time Emmy Winner for Best Reality Competition Program THE AMAZING RACE. Other programs I lean to are CSI, HOUSE and CRIMINAL MINDS.

In the past, I used to watch FRIENDS, THE PRACTICE and CHARMED.

8) I want to live a simple kind of life but it seems that it will never happen. All my life, my life as a handicap has been complicated. Frustrations haunt me. There are many trials left and right. Some people would underestimate my worth and that sucks! But here I stand, still enjoying the spontaneity of everything and no matter what the future holds, either I'll be rich as Bill Gates or not, I will still be a SURVIVOR!

Before I end this post, I'll be posting here the tags given by LYKA R. and JEAN D., also my co-workers. To all of you readers, big thanks to you and keep reading my blog until the time is through.

Jean's Tag to me:

Lyka's Tag to me:

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Saturday, September 27, 2008

Survivor Gabon: Good & Great Moments Except for Some!

Everything is simply good and great in SURVIVOR GABON during its two-hour premiere on Friday, September 26, 2008 (Philippine Time).

The fact that it is the first season to be shot in high definition using the Sony XDCAM; Gabon, tagged as the Earth's Last Eden, is probably the most luxurious place for the new set of castaways to outwit, outplay and outlast each other in 39 days.

I am completely satisfied with the Gabon's Opening Intro. It's uniquely done and perhaps, one of the bests of all time. You MUST watch the Survivor: Gabon Intro to believe! Here you go...

Like in Season 5 (Survivor Thailand), two of the oldest castaways, Bob Crowley the 58-year-old Physics Teacher and Gillian Larson the 61-year-old retired nurse, were given the honor to select their own tribemates. After the schoolyard pick, the castaways were equally divided into two tribes, FANG (the red tribe and this word means as one of the long, sharp, hollow or grooved teeth of a venomous snake by which poison is injected) and KOTA (the one with the yellow flag; Kota means "A city of northwest India south-southwest of Delhi"). Geez, this is like Samburu-and-Boran all over again in Survivor Africa!

Unluckily, Giliian seems unsuccessful in choosing her tribemates as the Fang Tribe lose three straight challenges in a row.

A huge disappointment is when Michelle Chase was the first one to go due to her negative personality. Seriously, the idea of voting her out was somehow irrational. Although she seems pessimistic in all stuffs, Fang might still her competitive spirit in group challenges. It seems like Fang has forgotten to review their Strategy Manual 101. Hey Fang, did you still remember the Boran's strategy of keeping Clarence Black and letting go of Jessica Camacho back in Season 3?

Fang's second tribal council was a good one. They unanimously let go of Gillian despite of her positive and mother-like charisma. But before they let her go, the tribe wanted to vote out Dan Kay, the 32-year-old lawyer from Boston. What's wrong with Fang? If they will continue doing this senseless decisions during Tribal Councils, I'm sure Fang will be put in the LOSERS CIRCLE like the Ulong Tribe in Survivor Palau: Season 10.

Another stand-out character in the show was Bob, the Physics Teacher in Kota. In his senior age, seeing him solve the puzzle pieces to Kota's immunity victory was beyond my expectations. No doubt, he was a physics teacher. Physics is a complicated subject and Bob has managed to solve the puzzle like he was drinking water. Looks like Kota really needs him in the succeeding mental challenges.

I didn't feel Kelly Czarnecki, the retail sales in those first two episodes. It's a lucky call for Kelly that she was in the group of the winning circle, Kota. Yet, there were several stand-out characters in Kota and Kelly's recognizable appearance was nowhere to be seen. She was my first pick as one of my favorites but unexpectedly, I rarely hear her speak. What's wrong with the editing production? I thought Kelly was the "hot chick" of the season.

Matty Whitmore, the personal trainer, was doing great in Fang Tribe and played this "I'm-A-Hero" type of strategy during the game. He opted to help his two other tribe members who struggled climbing the hill during their First Reward/Individual Immunity Challenge. His only downslide was his ability to make crucial decisions for his tribe. His emotions swallowed him as he decided to vote out Michelle Chase over Gillian Larson during their first tribal Council.

If you want to read other interesting and odd events about the two-hour premiere of Survivor Gabon, you can go to:
Michelle Chase Exclusive Interview at BuddyTV
Survivor: Gabon: 2-Hour Premiere Recap
The Funny News: Doctor's in Scandal
Jeff Probst blogs 'Survivor: Gabon'

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Friday, September 26, 2008

The Castaways in Gabon...

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Thursday, September 25, 2008

Back-To-Back Rollercoaster of Love!


At 7:20 PM tonight, I'll be at Gabon to watch the new set of 18 castaways as they outwit, outplay and outlast each other.

After that, I will proceed to Ko Tarutao, Thailand to attend the second Tribal Council of the Naak tribe in Survivor Philippines.

This will surely be a one-hell of a ride for SURVIVORDEAN.... LOL

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Monday, September 22, 2008

The Questions of Success

"How to be successful in life?" This is the question we always have in mind. Although we are really not aware of the answers, we keep on moving. Sometimes, we forget to pause for a while and seek for questions we need to provide with answers. Maybe, life is all about questions and it's up to us how we give answers to these questions.

Earlier, I found this inspiring site as I was diggin' the latest scoops in Digg and I suggest everyone to check it out. Here's the link: established by Andrew Galasetti.

In his site, he wrote this 75 questions you need to ask yourself in order to understand yourself the way you want it. Truth is, in order to achieve the peak of your success, there are questions you need to answer personally, right?

So, as you read these 75 questions, never expect immediate answers. Just remember that in life, we need a lot of time before we can provide insightful answers to our questions.

75 Questions To Ask Yourself

1. Why not me?

2. Am I nice?

3. Am I doing what I really want to do?

4. What am I grateful for?

5. What’s missing in my life?

6. Am I honest?

7. Do I listen to others?

8. Do I work hard?

9. Do I help others?

10. What do I need to change about myself?

11. Have I hurt others?

12. Do I complain?

13. What’s next for me?

14. Do I have fun?

15. Have I seized opportunities?

16. Do I care about others?

17. Do I spend enough time with my family?

18. Am I open-minded?

19. Have I seen enough of the world?

20. Do I judge others?

21. Do I take risks?

22. What is my purpose?

23. What is my biggest fear?

24. How can I conquer that fear?

25. Do I thank people enough?

26. Am I successful?

27. What am I ashamed of?

28. Do I annoy others?

29. What are my dreams?

30. Am I positive?

31. Am I negative?

32. Is there an afterlife?

33. Does everything happen for a reason?

34. What can I do to change the world?

35. What is the most foolish thing I’ve ever done?

36. Am I cheap?

37. Am I greedy?

38. Who do I love?

39. Who do I want to meet?

40. Where do I want to go?

41. What am I most proud of?

42. Do I care what others think about me?

43. What are my talents?

44. Do I utilize those talents?

45. What makes me happy?

46. What makes me sad?

47. What makes me angry?

48. Am I satisfied with my appearance?

49. Am I healthy?

50. What was the toughest time in my life?

51. What was the easiest time in my life?

52. Am I selfish?

53. What was the craziest thing I did?

54. What is the craziest thing I want to do?

55. Do I procrastinate?

56. What is my greatest regret?

57. What has had the greatest impact on my life?

58. Who has had the greatest impact on my life?

59. Do I stand up for myself?

60. Have I settled for mediocrity?

61. Do I hold grudges?

62. Do I read enough?

63. Do I listen to my heart?

64. Do I donate enough to the less fortunate?

65. Do I pray only when I want something?

66. Do I constantly dwell on the past?

67. Do I let other people’s negativity affect me?

68. Do I forgive myself?

69. When I help someone do I think “What’s in it for me”?

70. Am I aware that someone always has it worse than me?

71. Do I smile more than I frown?

72. Do I surround myself with good people?

73. Do I take time out for myself?

74. Do I ask enough questions?

75. What other questions do I have?

Life can be hard. There are doubts, frustrations and stress but have faith and continue surviving!

Good Luck

Congrats, Jeff Probst!

Jeff Probst, the remarkable host of the hit and also an Emmy-nominee TV reality show SURVIVOR, brought home the ever-first winning ticket as the OUTSTANDING HOST FOR A REALITY OR REALITY-COMPETITION PROGRAM during last night's Emmy Awards 2008.

Other nominees for the said category are Ryan Seacrest of American Idol, Tom Bergeron of Dancing With the Stars, Howie Mandel of Deal or No Deal and Heidi Klum of Project Runway.

JJ Abrams' LOST was also nominated for seven categories including Outstanding TV Drama Series but failed to gain the victory for the second time. Yet, LOST still came out victorious as they grab the award for Outstanding Sound Mixing for a Comedy or Drama Series (One-Hour).

For a complete list of winners in this year's Emmy's, you can visit

For now, big congratulations to Jeff and see you in 3 days on SURVIVOR GABON: The Earth's Last Eden!

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Sunday, September 21, 2008

Are You in "FRINGE?"

What's the meaning of FRINGE? According to, FRINGE is a noun referring to something regarded as peripheral, marginal, secondary, or extreme in relation to something else. For example, if you run as a president, make sure that you don't belong to a "lunatic fringe of a strong political party."

Wow! FRINGE is really one of those intellectual vocabularies that many will not use in their everyday conversations (LOL) but here's a great news for all of you, FRINGE is the newest drama series that's splashing your TV screens this fall and what can you ask for??? This mythological drama series is created by JJ Abrams, the one responsible for the gigantic success of LOST.

According to Wikipedia, "The series deals with a research scientist named Walter Bishop (described as "Frankenstein mixed with Albert Einstein" and portrayed by John Noble), his son Peter Bishop (Joshua Jackson), and an FBI agent, Olivia Dunham (Anna Torv) who brings them back together. The show is described as a cross between The X-Files, Altered States, The Twilight Zone, Dark Angel."

Fringe Promo Trailer

Fringe Promotional Trailer 2

Like Lost, this looks like an Einstein-like drama series that will rock my world into the deep levels of obscurity and doubt. Geez, goosebumps all over me as I am watching the above promo trailers and I can't wait for the airing of the pilot episode here in the Philippines.

Watch this JJ Abrams Interview

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Saturday, September 20, 2008

Goodbye, Chev!

Chev Macias made a huge history as she was the first voted-out castaway in Survivor Philippines.

For the full story, read here.

"She talks too much."

This might be the biggest weakness of Chev Macias and the reason behind her departure. In the game of Survivor, you can talk freely but you must still remember that it's a whole cut-throat game and whatever words came out from your mouth is held against you. Chev was an awesome castaway and displayed a certain level of competitive energy during their first immunity challenge. Her only mistake was, she wasn't listening to anyone. She only talks and listens to her own voice, which might be a good thing in some ways but this is really a big crime in the game of SURVIVOR.

Chev's annoying personality towards her other fellow castaways such as Vevherly, JC and Kaye was a bad strategy. Survivor is not a game where you can immediately take down the affluent and the beautiful. The game is not about mercy; truth is, it's mainly about deceptive conspiracies and win the money.

Again, Survivor is a game of words and actions. Talking is a nice strategy to outwit, outplay and outlast your opponents but when it's done excessively, you can step on somebody's toe without knowing that your head is already on the chopping board.

Friday, September 19, 2008

She's Out Of My Life

She's Out Of My Life
She's Out Of My Life
And I Don't Know Whether To Laugh Or Cry
I Don't Know Whether To Live Or Die
And It Cuts Like A Knife
She's Out Of My Life

It's Out Of My Hands
It's Out Of My Hands
To Think For Two Years She Was Here
And I Took Her For Granted I Was So Cavalier
Now The Way That It Stands
She's Out Of My Hands

So I've Learned That Love's Not Possession
And I've Learned That Love Won't Wait
Now I've Learned That Love Needs Expression
But I Learned Too Late

She's Out Of My Life
She's Out Of My Life
Damned Indecision And Cursed Pride
Kept My Love For Her Locked Deep Inside
And It Cuts Like A Knife
She's Out Of My Life


No words needed to be written. I just feel like singing this old school R&B single by Michael Jackson.

It takes time to move on and it's better to think of other great things like SURVIVOR, TENNIS TOURNAMENTS, RHYTHM & BLUES, CONTENT WRITING, SEO, BLOGGING and of course, the crazy world of PSYCHOLOGY

I will not be a slave of this cheesy emptiness I can't free myself from.... Life is so short for those drama!

Thursday, September 18, 2008

Use Those Keywords To Optimize Your Articles

Hendry Lee of Article Marketing sent me a free newsletter that contains a link and permits you to free download his module on SEO Keyword Checklist for content writers.

The main goal of the module is to teach content writers the correct placement of the required keywords when they are writing articles. Proper placement of the keywords avoids "keyword-stuffing" and improves the overall readability of your piece.

Here's the module's screenshot:

How To Be A Successful Web Content Writer?

There are no strict rules in writing. Good writing doesn't always conform with the correct usage and grammar.

As long as you've got the idea and know how to expand, just keep the ball rolling and without knowing it, you're writing like a pro.

Yet, you need to remember that writing on the web is much different than writing in paper. For this reason, here are some effective tips for you to follow:

1) Select your topic well

To be a successful content writer, you need to have the confidence that your audience will like your article. The topic should be something of their interest. Never write something if you can't expertly relate to it, unless if you are coerced to do so.

If the topic seems profitable but you're not really interested in it, better start researching. Read, read and read until you get what you really want. Numerous topics are just out there, you simply need to find them.

2) Plan & Write

Another important thing to remember in content writing: Never confuse your readers.

In this case, you need to prepare an outline before you write something. This will help you point out the clear and specific points of your idea. Having an outline at hand makes writing easier and faster.

If outlining doesn't fit your taste. Try free writing approach. here, you write all your ideas and keywords in a sheet of paper. Just write anything you want. Edit and organize later.

3) Find your Style

Each one of us has a style in writing, right? To become a more effective content writer, you must learn how to effectively communicate with your readers.

In fact, a good and well-written content must inform and entertain your readers as if they are simply watching a blockbuster movie. Just write and don't decorate it with many unnecessary words, unless if you are making a novel.

In fact, Mr. Average Joe likes to read short but straight-forward, persuasive and conversational articles.

4) Market

What is content writing if you don't earn a dime? Sucks to think about it, right?

If you think you are a writer oozing with potential, start thinking of certain ways on how you can earn money online. These process may be simple but it takes time.

First, if you have a blog in blogger or wordpress, distribute your blog entries to numerous article directories and online communities like MySpace, Facebook, Multiply, Ezine, GoArticles etc. Hint: In choosing an Article directory, be sure that it receives huge traffic rankings.

Studying the rudiments of pay-per-click programs like google ads, pay-per-post etc. is a great start.

As much as possible, convert your writings into press releases, press releases into newsletters, newsletters into links, newsletters into videos, and videos into pictures.

If you are done doing these things, you can integrate your ideas and build a very comprehensive Squiddo account. The Squiddo is an easy-to-use social media hosting website.

One way of spreading your content in the world is by having a site and submitting your site url to several free directories.

Important Reminder:
If you don't succeed at first, just keep on trying until you meet your luck online.

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

At Last! They Change The Intro...

One of the major downfalls of Survivor Philippines as I was watching their pilot episode was their opening theme. Geez, that was not what I want to see, the visual editing seems on the average but the sound effects is weak and boring. Majority of Filipinos will be disappointed in it.

Honestly, this might be the worst Survivor Intro in history. Come on now GMA, are you kidding me? This is Survivor! The reality show that started all the cut-throat and brain slashing and truth of the matter is, whether you'll like it or not, you should catch up with the two-thumbs-up technical standards of the originals.

For the readers, watch this video and tell me what you think.

But something magical happened as I was browsing the "Survivor Philippines" videos on YouTube. At last, GMA has finally changed the introduction and what's cool about the new theme is, it's now similar to the original US version. The one with the invincible forces in it.

Here it goes...

Muscle Gain Mini-Course Part 1: Eating to Gain Mass

Anthony Ellis, the author of Massology, sent me his first part of his free newsletter on gaining muscles and weight and the information are undeniably fantastic. He detailedly discuss the nutritious food we must eat to gain weight and put an end to our weak and skinny physique.

No doubt, this is one of the coolest newsletter I received in my inbox and I am posting it below.
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For so many people, the only real 'weight problem' is about losing it. If you have trouble gaining weight, you're shrugged off as another fussy eater. 'You're so lucky!' They'll tell you patronizingly. 'All you have to do is eat!'

The truth is, no one will ever gain muscle without food. Dieting for muscle gain is simply a matter of eating.

You must eat more calories than your body burns off.
Now, when I say eat, I do not mean just anything. All calories are not created equal. In other words, some types of calories are not equal to others for gaining muscle. For example, if I said that you need to eat 2,000 calories per day to gain weight, and you eat 4 bags of potato chips each day, do you think you would gain muscle? Not likely.

The majority of your weight would be fat. Why? Because potato chips, like most processed junk food, contains empty, totally nutritionless calories. These foods promote accelerated fat storage, and do not provide you with the correct nutrient breakdown essential for gaining muscle.

High quality protein, which the body breaks down into amino acids, should be the center point of all your meals. Intense exercise increases demand for amino acids, which support muscle repair and growth. When you train with weights, you should eat a minimum of 1 gram of protein per pound of body weight. So, for example, if you weight 100 lbs., you should be eating at least 100 grams of protein per day. You also must have protein at every meal.

To enable your body to actually assimilate and use the all the calories you will ingest, you have to reduce your meal size and increase your meal frequency. Splitting your calories into smaller, more frequent portions will enable food absorption and utilization of nutrients. I always eat six meals each day, evenly spaced out at three-hour intervals. My goal is to provide my body with constant nourishment throughout the day.

You don't have to have carbs or fat at every meal, but you must have protein. When I say protein, I am referring to high quality protein derived from animal sources. Soy protein, tofu and bean curd have their place, but for getting bigger and stronger, the only protein you need to be concerned with are those found in whey, casein (cottage cheese), eggs, beef, poultry, and fish.

High Protein Foods


^ Whey protein
^ Eggs
^ Egg whites
^ Chicken breasts
^ Turkey Breasts
^ Lean Beef
^ Fish (tuna, salmon)
^ Protein bar
^ Soy protein Isolate

High Carbohydrate Food

^ Potatoes (baked, fries, hash browns)
^ Sweet Potatoes, yams
^ Oatmeal, cream of wheat, cream of rice
^ Rice
^ Beans
^ Any green leafy vegetable
^ Bread
^ Pasta
^ All cereals (hot or cold)

Healthy Fats

^ Olive oil
^ Sunflower oil
^ Safflower oil
^ Flaxseed oil
^ Walnuts
^ Avocados

Here's A Sample Mass Diet


It provides 2,440 calories, 234g of protein, 182g of carbs and 81g of fat:

8am -- Meal 1

^ Myoplex, 1 tsp flaxseed oil

^ 432 calories, 42g of protein, 25g of carbs, 14g of fat

11am -- Meal 2

^ 4 Whole Eggs w/ 1 cup of hash browns

^ 440 calories, 28g of protein, 36g of carbs, 20g of fat

2pm -- Meal 3

^ 6 oz. chicken breast with 1/2 cup of rice

^ 319 calories, 50g of protein, 23g of carbs, 7g of fat

5pm -- Meal 4

^ 4 whole eggs in a flour tortilla w/salsa

^ 367 calories, 24g of protein, 17g of carbs, 20g of fat

8pm -- Meal 5

^ Myoplex, 1tsp flaxseed oil

^ 432 calories, 42g of protein, 25g of carbs, 14g of fat

11pm -- Meal 6

^ 6 oz grilled tuna with large baked potato, 1 cup of veggies

^ 450 calories, 48g of protein, 56g of carbs, 6g of fat

Eating the right amount of foods consistently will force your body to grow beyond what you may think possible. Don't believe me? Just take a look at some current results from these simple but effective tips:

"I just wanted to let you know that after 13 weeks on your program I have been able to go from a mere 121 pounds to 160 pounds. I really don't know how to thank you for your most valuable information. Today my self-esteem is on a high and it is all due to you. Thank you very much and just wanted to let you know that to me you are a pioneer of this field."

-Dinesh P., Oregon

"Over the past ten weeks I have gained about 22 pounds, the majority of it being muscle. My thighs, back, chest, and even shoulders have made considerable gains, enough to be noticed by people who see me everyday."

-Mike G., Iowa

Dean, these are a very small sample of the hundreds of UNSOLICITED testimonials that I receive regularly from users of my unique weight gain program.

Of course results vary, and will usually depend on your consistency and commitment to the program, but if you are serious about building more muscle, or if you haven't been able to gain weight no matter what you try, you should consider using my proven muscle building program.

The Gaining Mass! Program contains the complete diet and training program I used to gain 32lbs of mass. It contains 4 weeks of mass diets that tell you exactly what to eat and when to eat it.

Please read more about it at Fast Muscle Gain.

If you are skeptical, it's understandable. I probably would be also, after all I've been ripped off many times myself! Make sure you check out the many successful users who were just as skeptical in the beginning. See what they have to say here.

Tomorrow, check your email for Part 2 which will cover Weight Training for Maximum Muscle Gain

Anthony Ellis
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Tuesday, September 16, 2008

What If The Earth is Flat?

Let me ask you a question....


How will you draw it? How will you describe it?

No idea?

So am I, LOL!

While exploring digg, I found this cool image on how our planet looks like when it's flat. This is based on a creationist's point of view.

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Good Start for Survivor Philippines!

Survivor Philippines started with two of the most predictable twist and turns. Like Survivor Amazon, the eighteen castaways are divided based on their gender, Naak (meaning "snake" is the women's tribe) and Jarakay (means "crocodile" for the men's). This is not a new twist to me but it's okay, I am not expecting great highlights. Maybe, they will eventually do the unexpected in the near future.

Second, the castaways were not formally informed that their 39 days has begun and they think they were only having an interview at Ko Tarutao, Thailand. Again, this is not a surprising event to me and I have already seen it in the past.

On a positive note, the premiere of Survivor Philippines is good (5 stars out of 10). The opening intro and overall editing are not impressive compared to the original US edition yet it seems unfair to compare the two, the US version of Survivor has already created a huge name of their own and has produced several unforgettable characters like Parvati Shallow, Aras Baskauskas, Heidi Strobel, and Rob Cesternino.

Back to Survivor Philippines, the eighteen castaways seem likeable but I haven't have any remarkable favorites yet. I have some first-impression favorites as I am reading their profiles at (unofficial survivor philippines blog) but these choices are not yet final. In fact, as of September 16, 2008, a number of viewers voted two of my short-term picks as the hottest castaways of the season. Nikki Dacullo, the call center cutie of Cebu City got 41.5% and JC Tiuseco, the heartthrob basketball hunk of San Sebastian University garnered 42.9%.

Honestly, most of my favorites in US Survivor Borneo 'till Micronesia have made it to the jury or final two; unluckily, this is not the case in Survivor Philippines, it's too early to root for a strong contender and I am still figuring out not only the best but the optimus prime who can outsmart the bests.

This is absolutely a tough game of Pautakan, Pagalingan at Patatagalan!

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Monday, September 15, 2008

Writing A News Story To Succes!

When you say news writing, you are dealing with a number of events and everyone is interested to read it. If you want to write a news article, make sure you have gathered the basic W and H of the story. You should know what's the story all about, where did this story takes place, why this event is worth knowing, who are the participants of the story, when the story occurs and how the story began.

Details are important in news writing. When you have no enough details at hand, it seems impossible to write a good news article. In fact, before you write a news article, you need to research, research and never stop to research. You can even browse the Internet while you are writing the article to verify the information. After writing, it's your main responsibility to edit your article. Check for any typo error, wrong grammars etc.

Basically, a news article follows the traditional inverted pyramid form of writing. That means, you need to begin your news with the most juiciest slice of the meat. Your news writing begins with a lede (pronounced as LEAD). This is a journalistic slang term which refers to the first two sentences of your news body. The lede serves as your thesis statement of the news story and it must immediately capture your reader's attention. In fact, writing your lede in one sentence is already enough. A one-sentence lede is all you need to tell your readers why your story matters. Anyway, you can freely your the other details in the succeeding paragraphs.

"A 10-year-old girl and her bed-ridden grandmother escaped death yesterday after a woodsman hacked open a cross-dressing wolf that swallowed them whole."

This is an example of a lede I've got from

The only secret to becoming an effective news writer is to read, read and never stop reading. Writing is about conditioning. The more you read, the better you'll become and when it's time to put your ideas in the paper, you need to control the flow of your writing. Use few and easy-to-understand words and your paragraphs should be short, not more than two sentences. Avoid clauses, if possible. Clauses are hard to read and you are like tormenting your reader's mind when there are several clauses in your story. Remember: “A good rule of thumb is to have just one main idea per sentence.”

Sunday, September 14, 2008

A Must-Read Conversation

I received an eye-opener email recently and it goes like this....

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An Atheist Professor of Philosophy speaks to his Class on the Problem Science has with GOD, The ALMIGHTY.

He asks one of his New Christian Students to stand and . .

You are a Christian, aren't you, son ?

Yes, sir..

So you Believe in GOD?

Absolutely, sir.

Is GOD Good?




My Brother died of Cancer even though he prayed to GOD to Heal him. Most of us would attempt to Help Others who are ill. But GOD didn't. How is this GOD Good then ? Hmm ?

( Student is silent )

You can't answer, can you? Let's start again, Young Fella. Is GOD Good ?


Is Satan good?


Where does Satan come from?

From . . . GOD . . .

That's right. Tell me son, is there evil in this World ?


Evil is everywhere, isn't it ? And GOD did make Everything. Correct ?



So who created evil ?

( Student does not answer )

Is there Sickness? Immorality? Hatred? Ugliness? All these terrible things exist in the World, don't they?

Yes, sir.

So, who Created them?

( Student has no answer )

Science says you have 5 Senses you use to Identify and Observe the World around you. Tell me, son . . . Have you ever Seen GOD?

No, sir.

Tell us if you have ever Heard your GOD ?


No, sir..

Have you ever Felt your GOD, Tasted your GOD, Smelt your GOD? Have you ever had any Sensory Perception of GOD for that matter ?

No, sir. I'm afraid I haven't.

Yet you still Believe in HIM ?


According to Empirical, Testable, Demonstrable Protocol, Science says your GOD doesn't exist. What do you say to that, son ?

Nothing. I only have my Faith.

Yes. Faith. And that is the Problem Science has.

Professor, is there such a thing as Heat ?


And is there such a thing as Cold ?



No sir. There isn't.

( The Lecture Theater becomes very quiet with this turn of events )

Sir, you can have Lots of Heat, even More Heat, Superheat, Mega Heat, White Heat, a Little Heat or No Heat. But we don't have anything called Cold. We can hit 458 Degrees below Zero which is No Heat, but we can't go any further after that. There is no such thing as Cold. Cold is only a Word we use to describe the Absence of Heat. We cannot Measure Cold. Heat is Energy. Cold is Not the Opposite of Heat, sir, just the Absence of it.

( There is Pin - Drop Silence in the Lecture Theatre )

What about Darkness, Professor ? Is there such a thing as Darkness ?

Professor :
Yes. What is Night if there isn't Darkness?


You're wrong again, sir. Darkness is the Absence of Something. You can have Low Light, Normal Light , Bright Light, Flashing Light . . . But if you have No Light Constantly, you have Nothing and it's called Darkness, isn't it? In reality, Darkness isn't. If it is, were you would be able to make Darkness Darker, wouldn't you ?

So what is the point you are making, Young Man ?

Sir, my point is your Philosophical Premise is Flawed.

Flawed? Can you explain how ?

Sir, you are working on the Premise of Duality. You argue there is Life and then there is Death, a Good GOD and a Bad GOD. You are viewing the Concept of GOD as something finite, something we can measure. Sir, Science can't even explain a Thought. It uses Electricity and Magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one. To view Death as the Opposite of Life is to be ignorant of the fact that Death cannot exist as a Substantive Thing. Death is Not the Opposite of Life : just the Absence of it. Now tell me, Professor, do you Teach your Students that they Evolved from a Monkey ?

If you are referring to the Natural Evolutionary Process, yes, of course, I do.

Have you ever observed Evolution with your own eyes, sir ?

( The Professor shakes his head with a Smile, beginning to realize where the Argument is going )

Since no one has ever observed the Process of Evolution at work and cannot even prove that this Process is an On - Going Endeavor, are you not Teaching your Opinion, sir? Are you not a Scientist but a Preacher ?

( The Class is in Uproar )

Is there anyone in the Class who has ever Seen the Professor's Brain ?

(The Class breaks out into Laughter)

Is there anyone here who has ever Heard the Professor's Brain, Felt it, Touched or Smelt it? No one appears to have done so. So, according to the Established Rules of Empirical, Stable, Demonstrable Protocol, Science says that you have No Brain, sir. With all due respect, sir, how do we then Trust your Lectures, sir?

(The Room is Silent. The Professor stares at the Student, his face unfathomable )


I guess you'll have to take them on Faith, son.

That is it sir . . . the Link between Man & GOD is FAITH. That is all that Keeps Things Moving & Alive.

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Hopefully, after reading this conversation, you'll realize that what is essential is really invisible to the eye.

Saturday, September 13, 2008

Survivor Intro and More...

Today is like my luckiest day of my twenty-four years of experience. As I was browsing the Survivor videos in YouTube, I was blown away when I dig these three great winnings.

Survivor Themes 1-8

Here, you'll see the opening intro of Survivor: Borneo, Survivor: Australian Outback, Survivor: Africa, Survivor: Marquesas, Survivor: Thailand, Survivor: Amazon, Survivor: Pearl Islands and Survivor: All Stars.

Survivor Themes 9-16

All eight opening themes in one spectacular video. Survivor: Vanuatu, Survivor: Palau, Survivor: Guatemala, Survivor: Panama Exile Islands, Survivor: Cook Islands, Survivor: Fiji, Survivor: China and Survivor Micronesia Fans vs Favorites.

Survivor Logos 1-15 and Tribal Council Theme Song


Tribute to my bestest and smartest two castaways who won the title

Parvati Shallow of Survivor: Micronesia

Aras Baskauskas of Survivor: Panama Exile Islands

Friday, September 12, 2008

Survivor Gabon, Here I Come!

Mark your calendars, Survivor Gabon is coming in two weeks (September 26, 2008 at 7:20 PM Philippine Time on Q-TV, the sister network of GMA). Geez, this is way cooler than I thought and I'm looking forward to it.

Now that 2008 Tennis Grand Slams are all finished; Djokovic and Sharapova were hailed as the champions in the Australian Open, Nadal and Ivanovic brought home the bacon during the French Open finals, Nadal and Venus Williams had proven once again they are the UNDEFEATABLE in Wimbledon and Federer and Serena Williams recently nailed the hardcourt in US Open Finals; there's no other reason why I can't put my hundred percent attention to Survivor Gabon.

Gabon is the seventeenth season of this Emmy-award reality competition series and I miss watching the show on primetime TV. The fact that Survivor Fiji, Survivor China and Survivor Micronesia were ax in Studio 23, I was only watching the show's highlights in Youtube and Oftentimes, the video clips were not working properly due to slow internet connection. It was really crazy that time but the experience will now be buried. It remains a memory and only a memory.

Here's the Unofficial Survivor: Gabon Intro I stumbled upon in YouTube.

First Impression Favorites

Every season of Survivor, it has been my routine to choose my first-impression favorites before the show will be aired on TV. Sometimes, my favorites were voted out early and failed to make it on final four but there are still times I got lucky and my favorites would sail through the final two. In fact, two of my first impression favorites grab the title of the sole survivor and these castaways are Aras Baskauskas of Survivor Panama Exile Islands and Parvati Shallow of Survivor Micronesia Fans vs Favorites.

In Gabon, two of the eighteen castaways were a stand out and hopefully, one of them can make on the jury.


AGE: 22
OCCUPATION: Retail sales

JEFF PROBST SAYS: "The way I would describe Kelly is that she is part of the Text Message Generation. And she speaks that way, she'll say, 'OMG!' for 'Oh, my God!' That's Kelly. And just as a grown man looking at her I could say, 'That's charming, she's young and has her whole life ahead of her.' But as a tribemate I'd probably say, 'If she says OMG, I'll probably say GTFOH."


AGE: 29
OCCUPATION: Personal trainer

JEFF PROBST SAYS: "I think Matty will be one of the favorites this season, someone people will absolutely love. I find him to be one of the most endearing guys we've ever had on the show to the point where it could work against him because he can't hide anything. If he's confused, he says, 'I'm confused.' If he's happy, he's smiling. If he's sad, he's crying."

I'm also rooting for MICHELLE CHASE aged 24 and works as a music production assistant and there's also the 32-year-old DAN KAY who works as a lawyer.


TV Guide telecasts a detailed almost one-and-a-half-hour-long preview of Survivor Gabon and what's a real wow about this preview is, it's narrated by the gorgeous Parvati Shallow. How cool is that?

Watch these eight-part Survivor Gabon Preview and get a glimpse on the castaways' personal whereabouts, see the complexities behind the technical craft and how the Gabon's Tribal Council is built. Don't also miss the sneak peak of their first immunity challenge.

Survivor Gabon TV Guide Preview - Part A
Survivor Gabon TV Guide Preview - Part B
Survivor Gabon TV Guide Preview - Part C
Survivor Gabon TV Guide Preview - Part D
Survivor Gabon TV Guide Preview - Part E
Survivor Gabon TV Guide Preview - Part F
Survivor Gabon TV Guide Preview - Part G
Survivor Gabon TV Guide Preview - Part H

To all the Survivor Folks, Survivor Nerds and Survivor Addicts, we are all alive again and let's keep the ball rolling!!!

Photos and Info about the castaways are taken from:

Thursday, September 11, 2008

KERS Technology: On Its Way To Success or Failure?

What is Kinetic Energy Recovery System (KERS)?

Kinetic Energy Recovery System (KERS) is defined as mechanical device used in capturing kinetic energy while a vehicle slows down. Unlike other hybrid vehicles appearing to be heavy in weight due to excessive conversion of kinetic energy to electrical energy, KERS is believed to have a lighter and compact engine power system. This mechanical device, which has a rough total mass of not more than 25 kg., only adds 55 lbs to the original vehicle's weight and you can guarantee the mechanical efficiency of your car has reached its optimum level.

KERS and its Benefits

There are several benefits of KERS. Aside from the fact that it improves the acceleration level of your car in a short period of time, this device can also save fuel and the cost is cheaper compared to other regenerative brakes.

Due to its mechanical efficiency, the use of KERS gives relaxation to your vehicle's motor engine and for this, there will be a great transformation in racing sports in the near future.

Issues About KERS and The Formula One

President Max Mosley has stated that Formula One Event will use KERS in 2009 to improve its competitive and performance edge. According to Wikipedia Free Encyclopedia, “The hybrid system that will be implemented in Formula 1 is known as KERS, which stands for Kinetic Energy Recovery System. The maximum power that can be released from such a system is restricted to 60 kW by the FIA. Energy can either be stored as mechanical energy (as in a flywheel) or can be stored as electrical energy (as in a battery or supercapacitor).”

Flybird F1 is the first featured power system in KERS technology. This power system weighs 24 kg, has 5.0 kg diameter, has 18 Nm maximum torque, has an energy capacity of 400 kJ, and has a minimum power boost of 60 kW in 6.67 seconds. For more relevant information about this system, it is featured in Racecar Engineering Magazine.

Unluckily, what's believed to be a great technology has also its downslides. One report said, using KERS batteries can be deathly and causes arsenic poison to human drivers. In July 2008, Formula One has recorded two minor accidents involving KERS. The Red Bull Racing Team was caught in a fire scare incident when their KERS battery breaks down. During the fire scare incident, Christian Horner, the team principal of Red Bull Racing Team, said.

“Basically, in a controlled environment we had a battery that basically ran away with itself. It was contained within a chemical, as a safety precaution to keep it cool, that let off quite a lot of steam and unfortunately caused about two hours of disruption in the main factory as the smoke had to be dealt with by the fire brigade. It was not a major incident and never at any point dangerous, but one that we obviously had to take all precautions with.”

In Jerez Spain of the same year, an BMW Sauber mechanic suffered an electrical shock when he tested the said device on Christian Klien's KERS-loaded vehicle.

"The mechanic suffered an electric shock after touching the sidepod and steering wheel of the car," said BMW's head of powertrain development Markus Duesmann. "There was a high frequency AC voltage between these contact points, the cause of which has been traced back to the KERS control unit and a sporadic capacitive coupling from the high-voltage network to the 12-volt network. The voltage ran through the wiring of the 12-volt network to the steering wheel and through the carbon chassis back to the control unit.”

It was reported the BMW Sauber has already forwarded a FIA copy of the investigation to the Technical Group and due to the complex nature of the KERS system, the results of the investigation were delayed.

"The driver was insulated against the car by his racing overalls and gloves and therefore not in any danger,” Duesmann added. “In addition to the measures required to tackle the issue at hand, the extremely far-reaching analysis we conducted also gave rise to other recommendations which are of great value for the development of electric KERS systems. In the absence of data, all the theoretical possibilities had to be systematically investigated and analysed in tests.”

"We will resume the testing programme once all the necessary amendments to the safety concept have been implemented. We expect this to be the case in the autumn."

What's The Future for KERS?

Due to these alarming issues, the use of KERS will not be compulsory for the next season of Formula One. For now, the future of KERs technology still marks a big question for everyone. When the mystery behind this system remains unsolved, it may only lead to havoc. For the mechanical experts out there, the improvement of KERS technology is a massive challenge and hopefully, this system will bring new heights of efficiency and functionality not only to the racing world but to the humankind.

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Wednesday, September 10, 2008

How To SUCCESSFULLY Write An Article?

Sometimes, article writing is confused with news writing. News writing is entirely different from article writing. News can always be articles but not all articles can be news. There's a thin line that separates these two approaches and if you want to understand the whereabouts of journalistic style of news writing, you can visit Wikipedia or if you are looking for great tips and tricks on how you should write a news, click here.

The focus of this entry is to teach you how you can successfully write an article without sweat. Truth is, anyone can write an article but not everybody can write a good article. A good article is a must-read and the writing approach is flowing with ease and confidence.

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How to Write Articles

from wikiHow - The How to Manual That You Can Edit

Whether it's for a magazine, newspaper, your teacher, or even wikiHow, writing an amazing article whittles down to one widely-adaptable technique. Here's how to use that technique to your advantage.


  1. Determine your topic. Exactly what are you going to write about? Brainstorm for ideas if you have to. When writing for wikiHow, you may even wish to refer to requested topics for ideas.
  2. Figure out who your audience is. Are you writing for a beginner, an intermediate, or an advanced audience? For example, if you are writing an article about "Creating PowerPoint Slides," are your readers new to PowerPoint, or business people looking for advanced tips?
  3. Do your research. How well do you know the topic? Is it something you can write easily about with little or no preparation, or do you need more information from experts in the field?
  4. Decide on the length of the article. Teachers, magazines, and newspapers will often give you a limit. wikiHow articles, on the other hand, are often "as long as they need to be and no longer."
  5. Compile a list of possible sources for you to consult. This can include documents, internet research and people to talk to.
  6. Write either an outline or a summary of your article. This will help bring the concept of the article into sharper focus.
  7. Write the rough draft of the article as follows:
    • Tell your readers what you are going to tell them. This is your introduction. For example:
      • This article explains how to create a PowerPoint slide presentation. It covers the following information: choosing a theme, creating a title slide, and creating topic slides.
      • The information in this article is written for a beginner. The author assumes that you have never used PowerPoint.
    • Tell your readers what you promised to tell them. In this section you tell them how to choose a theme, create a title slide, and how to create topic slides.
    • Tell your readers what you just told them. For example:
      • This article taught you how to create a PowerPoint slide presentation. You learned how to choose a template, how to create a title slide, and how to create topic slides.

  8. Check over your piece for presentation.
    • Check for faulty information. Have you double-checked your facts?
    • Delete any unnecessary or contradictory information. The only time you should have information that doesn't support your topic is if you're doing a "point-counterpoint" piece.
    • Eliminate anything that is just taking up space. Don't fill your work with fluff. If you need to do more research, go ahead and do it.
    • Check for grammar and spelling errors.
    • Read it aloud to yourself to make sure the text flows smoothly.

  9. Rewrite the article as often as it takes.
  10. Turn in your completed article.


  • Neither the outline nor the summary for your article has to be in traditional I, II, III format. The point of formatting is to help you. If you feel you can find your focus by writing a list of incomplete sentences, then go for it. Later, if your teacher wants a formal outline, you can create one from the article itself.
  • By checking grammar and spelling errors last in the editing process, you won't waste any time by correcting those on something you may delete.
  • If you're writing for a newspaper or magazine and are new to professional writing, it's customary to introduce yourself and your story in a query or pitch letter. Find the name of the editor who will be handling your piece (i.e.; if you're writing an article about cars for a newspaper, find the name of the car-section editor). This information can be found in the masthead, a box containing the names of the editors, usually found near the front or comment pages of a publication. Write a catchy but brief outline of what your story is about and why that publication's readership would be interested in it. Also include a few lines about your experience as a writer. The tone of this letter should be professional, but affable and friendly. It is not the place to make demands, or admit your shortcomings as a professional writer. Discussing wages and freelance fees should come after the editor has accepted your pitch.
  • If you have no experience as a professional writer, do not start off pitching columns (opinion pieces). Columns are generally reserved for people who have either been working at a publication for a very long time, or for people who have a particular expertise in a field. If you're new to writing, start small. Think obituaries, human-interest stories and simple news articles. It's generally easier to start with newspapers than with magazines. Try writing for life, fashion, arts, cars or travel sections before pitching stories to news. These sections tend to be understaffed and therefore have a greater budget for freelance writers.
  • If you're interested in pursuing a career as a writer, be realistic. People who make their living as writers generally start to build their portfolio of published work as early as high school. It generally takes even the most dedicated writer several years before he can make a living off of the trade. In other words, don't quit your day job. Ease into writing gradually, perhaps doing freelance pieces while maintaining a more stable job part-time.
  • Take some courses in both non-fiction and fiction writing. Not only will they help with your work, but also you can make contacts in the business by getting to know your professors and fellow writers. This will help you to be taken seriously when you start pitching articles for publication. Being a good freelance writer means knowing how to write and how to network.
  • Make sure your article answers five questions: why, where, when, what and how.


  • When writing for a newspaper or magazine, do not do so for free. Ask what their freelance fee is beforehand. Your pay will usually be calculated on a per-word basis. Your work is valuable. Writing for free demeans the profession and makes making a living more difficult for those of us who depend on freelance fees to pay the bills. (But if you're just starting out, volunteering to do some articles for smaller community papers, student publications and trade magazines is a great way to build your portfolio. Be warned that these publications rarely have the money to pay freelancers anyway.)
  • Make sure to give yourself plenty of time to write the article. If you don't, then you'll be rushing at the last minute to create something that isn't representative of what you can truly do.
  • Do not be a diva. Your work will go through several editors, copy-editors and fact checkers before being published. It will be changed. Pulling a temper tantrum is a surefire way to not be invited to work for that publication again.
  • Your reputation as a writer is almost as important as the work you submit, do not make errors or plagiarize. Copying something without attribution is the quickest way to get blacklisted as a writer. Keep your notes and source lists handy so that your editors can verify your work. If you do make a mistake, come clean immediately and apologize profusely.
  • Don't miss deadlines. Generally speaking, a late article is worse than a mediocre one.
  • Literary circles are small and gossipy. Don't say anything bad about a fellow writer or editor, ever. You never know who's married to whom.

Things You'll Need

  • Something to write with: computer, pen and paper, etc.
  • An email account to pitch and submit stories. (Something vaguely professional, no one will take seriously.)
  • Research materials. Either go to your bookshelf, the library or find an expert on the topic.
  • Access to a database like Lexus Nexus or factiva. Be sure to see what others have already written on the topic.

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Living in Complicated Reality

It's not easy to be me! Living with physical disability is a complicated test with no correct or wrong answers in it. All you need to do have limitations. Poor self-esteem, lack of self-confidence, being isolated- name it, I have been through it all! Most of the time, I’m always a victim of labeling. Some people will immediately tag me as "different and abnormal." It really sucks! Indeed, having physical disability with a weak immune system is like a thorn of misery filled with a lot of obstacles along my way.

When I was still in my late childhood, I had a hard time dealing with my self. Back then, I couldn’t understand my life. It was futile! I had no self-confidence even a bit. I hardly socialize with people. I was even afraid to talk to my own cousins in such a way that when I talked to them, they might suddenly laugh at me.

During my elementary years, I really felt ashamed with my classmates and my teachers. I didn’t even recite in class. I didn’t even have the courage to report in front of the class. I was certainly an aloof.

In high school, it’s my first time when I got the nerve to report inside the class. I remembered my first T.H.E. class reporting and I was very nervous then. My mouth was somehow dry and my voice was crack. I couldn’t relax and I really felt intimidated. My classmates may mock at me, I thought. Such a weird and strange feeling that time! On the other hand, I improved myself a bit during class participation. I learned to express my point of views. I had friends; however, I still had no identity on my own. I was still upset and confused about my purpose in this world. Life, for me that time, was completely a boring routine. I came to a point that everything was just useless and dull. I felt extremely inferior when I was with other people. My self-esteem that time was drastically low. Whatever I do or say, I felt criticized and condemned. I fulfilled some of my high school dreams yet my life was still hazy.

My father wanted me to pursue computer science in college but I prefer psychology. I know, computer science might be the most useful course for me but I wanted to unlock the mysteries behind human behavior. I grew up as a confused individual and that time, I decided to make a change and stand with my own decisions. Sometimes, I hate myself for being a handicap but no matter, I need to love myself no matter what body structure fate has given me, right?

Truth is, humans are more complicated than computers. Computers work in algorithms, the human mind is not. I can learn the whereabouts of web programming and all that technical matters even I'm not a graduate of computer science.

After college, I realized that life was really unfair. There were always labeling on my back even if you tried to please the people around you. You might think that the closest people to you are proud of your achievements but it turn out to be, they are not and they will nail you down until your ego will be smashed into pieces. If these people don't love me, I can't force them to do so.

Inside me, I know that the soul of my mom is always there to give me the courage I need all the time. Sad to say, the painful reality still remains the same. Like computers, our lives can also run in algorithms. You can have the choice to do what you think is your choice but there are still a lot of things beyond your control. Life has many divisions and you can't always have what you want. It is extremely frustrating to be a human being sometimes, what's more if you are a handicap!

That's life, it goes on no matter how horrible it is. Now that I have realized my own strength and weaknesses, I’ve also learned to balance my self-esteem and just move on whatever it takes. Whatever criticisms that will come my way, I know I can manage it. It really hurts to be criticized but I have to deal with it and there's no other effective way of solving your problems than moving yourself toward it.

Truth is, everything they say against me is only a mere opinion of their own and not a huge fact about me. In life, what matters most is how you see yourself in the crowd. If you see yourself as a loser then you'll become one. There's only one you and me in this world and whoever you are; boy, girl, young, old, gay, bisexual, sexy, ectomorph, introvert, extrovert, prostitute, doctor, handicap, mentally-retarded, jerk, player, white, black, tall, petite, athlete or nerd, you can still stand tall to make a difference.

Yes, life is, indeed, a journey filled with roadblocks and detours but people, myself included, CAN still be a real survivor and choose to survive their own circumstances.

As a handicap, fighting my own insecurities is the greatest battle I have to suffer. It's a curse of fate. It's not my choice to be like this but what can I do? Quit? A survivor has his own limitations, he can lose the game we call life but he never quits. He gets tired but is willing to outplay life whatever happens. For this, living in complicated reality is the true meaning of my existence.